Sounds like you’ve got classic Enneagram 9 characteristics: instead of tuning into your own wants, you merge with everyone else’s so things stay in harmony, which leaves your real desires buried. Because those borrowed goals don’t carry your own spark, motivation fizzles the moment boredom or friction shows up.
Your Hedge #1 related to foods from 100 years ago. It’s spot on and the focus of my (at this point, very limited) writing. It’s a really useful heuristic to just surround yourself with foods from 100 years ago and then eat what you want, when you want. But I’d not connected that idea to a more agentic life… will ponder this.
I enjoyed reading this thoughtful post :) Totally agree about the ‘free energy’ you have when you pursue passions or interests. In the context of work then yes, perhaps following your passion might not lead to some helpful outcomes, like financial security. But it’s a pure waste if you don’t give in and follow it down the path a little, whether it’s at work or not. I call it ‘following the feeling’ and love that sense of surrender when I lean into it and leads me somewhere unexpected.
Sounds like you’ve got classic Enneagram 9 characteristics: instead of tuning into your own wants, you merge with everyone else’s so things stay in harmony, which leaves your real desires buried. Because those borrowed goals don’t carry your own spark, motivation fizzles the moment boredom or friction shows up.
Your Hedge #1 related to foods from 100 years ago. It’s spot on and the focus of my (at this point, very limited) writing. It’s a really useful heuristic to just surround yourself with foods from 100 years ago and then eat what you want, when you want. But I’d not connected that idea to a more agentic life… will ponder this.
I enjoyed reading this thoughtful post :) Totally agree about the ‘free energy’ you have when you pursue passions or interests. In the context of work then yes, perhaps following your passion might not lead to some helpful outcomes, like financial security. But it’s a pure waste if you don’t give in and follow it down the path a little, whether it’s at work or not. I call it ‘following the feeling’ and love that sense of surrender when I lean into it and leads me somewhere unexpected.